Friday, 11 February 2011

Douse yourselves in dye

Bonjour, and thankyou, all of you, every time I come back on here after being useless and not commenting on anything and getting fat on my own I have such lovely inspiring comments from everyone. I don't know what's the matter with you all being so nice to me, but I appreciate it nonetheless.

Today is emergency valentines liquid fast day 3.
I've had a cup of pink nesquik and skimmed milk so far.
I'm not calorie counting my liquids tho.
I probably should but I think if I do I'll panic and then try and eat even less and then have a binge and I NEED to look good for my boyfriend on valentines day, even if he did think I looked good when I weighed about 400stone and looked like I needed to be deported to fat land to drown in a vat of grease.

Anyway, I've decided to dye my own hair today, I usually rope other people into doing it for me because I'm useless but there was no one to do it til Sunday and I just couldn't stand it anymore, it's soooo messy and faded I actually didn't even want to go out in public anymore, the website where I usually get it has been down hence how it got so bad.

Sadly I can't dye my own hair for shit and so far I've only managed to pre-lighten my underneath roots because I ran out of dye and found it quite overwhelming how much hair and how many roots I have, and I have also successfully bleached all the fingertips on my left hand. Which are now tingling ominously.

OH WELL.

Also I'm obviously in my underwear doing this in front of an enormous mirror, which isn't that much fun.

But pants.

I'm hungry and it feels nice.

Focus on the positives.

Hopefully I will be back to commenting as of today, but thanks for all your support durng my semi-absence.

HAVE SOME THINSPO:
lovely.
Happy Friday!!!

lots and lots of love
xxxxx

edit: I've just realised that people in the real world call it strawberry nesquik as they are not me when I was 3 years old (actually I called it 'pink milk' then and refused to eat anything except for mashed banana and heated bottles of nesquik, I don't even like bananas so I don't know what that was about)



Wednesday, 9 February 2011

tins.

5 day emergency valentines day liquid fast.
Don't know what I weigh.
Possibly even in the 47s now.
Kill me.


Sunday, 6 February 2011

.

I am so off the rails that I am drinking full fat coke.
I don't even like full fat coke.
I have probably had about 7 billion pizzas in the past 3 days.
Help me.

Friday, 4 February 2011

sorry I'm useless.

I've been really busy and also really drunk aha so hence no posts/comments/general crapness recently.
@skeleton strong I am literally in love with you for those links and the recipe!
Thankyou so much!

In other news, I managed to be 44.9kg on Wednesday morning, before I went shopping with my best Uni friend.
After shopping we did our traditional carrying on drinking our way through the wetherspoons menu, and then drunkenly decided to go and get some impulse piercings. She got her rook done and I got my belly button, which I had been meaning to get as a reward for reaching 44kg, but my drunk self obviously felt 45 was also reward worthy.

2 days down the line and I'm somehow back at 45.5 again?!

I've not been amazing but I've not been dreadful either, around 600cals a day?

So I'm fasting today now to try and get back under 45.
And then liquids only tomorrow?
I really would like to be 44ish by valentines day but I think that might be a tad unrealistic.
hmph.

OK, got to shower and get ready to go out, I will try and catch up with everybody's blogs soon.



lovelove xxxx


Tuesday, 1 February 2011

Oh how she rocks, in keds and tube socks.

thinspo post #9

sorry I'm not on here much atm.
xxx