plastic lights

accidentally eating some crumpets.

Going to Fabric in London tonight for a (sort of) mate's bday.

He has 46 bombs of MDMA apparently, and I have about half a gram anyway.

Should be a laugh but I really can't be arsed and I hate clubbing.

I'd rather wander about in a field and dance about in a big flowy dress and watch the sunset on drugs.

Sounds much more appealing than loads of sweaty cunts all packed in to a dark room with flashing artificial lights and awful dubstep playing.

Bah humbug.

things that go bump in the night

#1 me faffing about because I'm too hungry to sleep

#2 my flatmate having sex in the room next door to me.

...turns out I'm not the only one still in my flat haha.

I gave going to sleep a go for a good half hour but I'm just STARVING. I totalled 210cals today tho, which I am quite proud of although my fitness pal told me off about it. It tried to scare me as well by saying all that 'your body will go into starvation mode' bullshit that everybody always says. It doesn't make sense though because your body can't be double triple quadruple storing all the calories you eat if there aren't any calories to store. And anyway experience has proved it to be bullshit.

Sudden and unexpected late night rant over.

In order to stop myself from eating my own hand I'm drooling over some yummy veggy recipes online, I've decided I'm gonna cook dinner for my famalam on Easter Sunday, I'll probably eat it though, which is a shame.

Think I might stay up all night and colour co-ordinate my wardrobe like some sort of obsessive lunatic.

Even tho I am the messiest person ever ever ever I do strangely really enjoy sorting things. Like putting packs of cards in the right order.

Sweeping is good too, although not really related.

Well that was normal.

What's a flan?

sleep well skinny people xxx

I am the hungriest hippo.

The issue being, that I am a hippo.

617cals yesterday, which was a bit meh.

Should be just over 200 today if all goes to plan, had dairylea dunkers for brekky (health food right there) and having noodles for dindins.

It's sunny and I feel on top of my life.

Like, I can get everything done and then it will be summer and I will be thin.

Hurrrrrr

My brain's not really working as I've not fed it.

I'm at uni on my owny atm as it's technically the holidays but I've had to meet with a few of my tutors about work I've missed, but my uni best friend is coming back tonight so I will hopefully get to hang out with her as I've not seen her for ages.

She might be seeing her boyf tho.

KNICKERS TO HIM.

la la la la the sun is shining and I'm stuck in my room.

Keyboards are really weird.

Pop.

arrivederci.

xxx

fuck it.

I'm coming back.

I found this photo on my computer yesterday:

that was me at 46kg, bmi 18.5

I weigh 50.1kg atm.

Actually repulsive.

I need to get back on track, back on this blog and back to all you lovely people who have been so nice to me over the months.

So, I'm doing Skinny_el's April Challenge.

And I am going to get skinny again, so bugger you food!!

Watching 'The Model Agency' in bed all day for inspiration.

I have also downloaded 'my fitness pal' for iphone which is great for calorie counting, although it rather hilariously thinks I ought to be eating 1,200cals a day.

I think there is a website too which you can sign up to for free even if you don't have an iphone.

lovely jubbly.

I will leave my 46kg picture as the thinspo for today.

Au revoir!

xxx

die on stage

I apologise for my sudden and untimely blogger death.

at the moment I am eating, occasionally, although this is unlikely to last for long.

I should have given it up for lent really shouldn't I?

My point being, I now have tumblr, but like a normal person tumblr, and if anyone wants to follow me on there or even remembers who I am then feel free:

mybloodbeatsblack.tumblr.com

still love you all, even in my absence (it makes the heart grow fonder right?)

xxxx