erghhh

So I've been having huge eating guilt today.

I had my dinner all planned out, but when I got out of college all my girls were waiting at the gate for me, turns out I'd missed a text to meet them for coffee.

Costa coffee really has the loveliest paninis. I got a cheese and mushroom flat bread thing which was 391cals, and I'd only had 2 rice cakes and low fat cream cheese for brekky at 140cals, but then I uncontrollably bought a packet of stupidly high calorie crisps at 194cals CRAZY CALORIES I TELL YOU CRAZY!!

Just had water all day a part from that and didn't get coffee but I just felt so awful for eating that panini and the crisps.

Then I went to see my friend's boyfriend in a play at college with my friend and they were giving out popcorn, but my friend is dieting too so we were all smug together not having any.

But then about an hour ago I went into the kitchen to get some water and I had the most pathetic binge ever, I only had an olive, a handful of pumpkin seeds and a glass of tropical juice, but I still feel so horrid about it. Like, I can't even go into the kitchen without eating something.

I feel like I've failed. I did 50 sit ups as soon as I came upstairs which is on top of my usual 25 but errrrggghhhh.

And I feel a little bit full now as well which is awful.

And I was 48.5kg when I weighed myself earlier so I've hardly lost anything in 2 days.

SAD FACE.

urghhh sorry for the rant.

here's some bikini thinspo, I think she waslike Miss World or something wasn't she?

I want to have bony shoulders

bye xxx