injections and pastys

yeahhhhh,

so today I had my 2nd HPV injection. It wasn't exactly what yew'd call superfun. My arm is all disabled again now, possibly worse than after the first one. Bad times. I had to get up earlier than usual to go have it done as well which isn't cool. Still, at least I'm less likely to die of Cervical cancer now, which probably wouldn't be superfun either, or at least I will be after number 3.

I decided that after the pain of the whole thing I deffo deserved a Cheese and Onion pasty from Gregg's, spesh as their was a voucher for a free one in the paper. It was just tempting fate really. According to a random website they're only 305cals which I'll beleive cos they aren't very big so I'm sure I'll recover from that, especially as I decided to walk home from Harrow instead of being a lazy arse and getting the bus like I normally do.

I had 2 rice cakes with light lurpak for brekky which is 140cals (ish)

plus an Alpen bar at college which was 124

and then pasty at 305

so that makes 569 so far today, which actually isn't bad at all.

If I get crazy hungry later I will have a ryvita with peanut butter or a special K bar or something but I'm going to try not to.

I tried on my old bikini yday, and I think it will look quite lovely when I'm skinny although it does make my boobs look a bit of funny shape so I'm going to get a nice one from La Senza or something too nearer the time. I took a picture of myself in it to remind me of how lardy I look in it now, which I was going to upload but then I thought, does the world really need to see this? And decided the answer was no.

Weighed myself last night and I was 49.5kg, which means I lost 0.8kg in one day, which is pretty awesome. Although I'm sure I won't be able to keep that up, and if I do I won't weigh anything at all by the time the holiday comes! I tried to make a 'ticker' thingy to like track my weight loss progress but it told me I wasn't allowed to have a target weight under 46kg which I think is a bit silly cos I'm only 5"2 but willies to them.

That's all anyway.

Here's some more bikini/beach/summer based thinspo to get me all motivated...

ok so that's lingerie as oppose to swim wear but yew get the idea.

haha I used to think that lingerie meant the same thing as laundry when I was a kid.

OK bye kids xxx

wowowow

I haven't done a blog since time itself was invented.

Basicallyyy

I'm just doing this now to obsessively ramble on about my diet that I'm on to lose weight for our pre-uni holiday to Zante in July, so that my friends don't think I've lost the plot/ get bored of me going on-and-on-and-on about how much I've eaten.

So I'ma let it out on here.

OKKKKK so, I'm doing this thing where yew eat something between 50 and 100cals every 2 hours. Drinks count, unless of course they're alcoholic (I think alcohol is very definitely MEANT to count, but if I did it like that I would use all my calories on alcohol and never eat at all) yeah and yew eat 6 meals a day starting at like 8am and finishing at 6pm.

Except, there's only 3 days a week that I'm UP at 8am, and another of my new rules is that I can't eat anything after 7pm (something or other about metabolisms, although also it just means that I eat less) so obvz I can't do that for the other 4 days of the week.

SO on those days I'm having brekky (usually when I wake up at about 12) which is usually around 200cals and then nothing until about 530 when I will have dinner that's usually around 400cals, which I have to say, tends to leave me less absolutely starving to death than the 6 meal thing, but it is good to be able to eat every 2 hours at college and such the like.

I've been doing this for a week now but I didn't dare weigh myself until yesterday because of all the weight I'm sure I put on over Christmas.

I'm at 50.3kg now and my target is 45kg, although really I would like to be 42kg for the holiday which I think is on the 23rd July.

All the boys will be there and I would love to feel thin enough to actually wear a bikini for the first time since I was like 13, when I still only wore it in the garden even though I probably only weighed about 2 kilos at the time.

well, that's all my rambling for today, I can eat something in 6 minutes time, which is brilliant cos I'm starving.

here's some thinspo (I know no one will see this but still still)

k bye x