I'd like to thank my mum, my dad, my cat and my imaginary budgie

ABC day 5

limit: 100cals

low cal instant noodles 94cals

94cals

I gots me an award (:

Given to me by the wonderful lovely lovely wonderful Harley.

Who I would like to thank lots because it made me very happy to see she had chosen me (:

So the rules of the award apparently are that I must post 10 facts about myself, and then pass on the award to 5 of my favourite people, which I'll be honest, I'm quite nervous about because I'm a socially awkward tard and I'm worried people will think it's odd of me to give them it because we don't talk enough or something, but lets see if I can come up with some facts first shall we?

#ONE

I once had a dream that I met Harley in real life and we went to a noodle bar and then didn't eat anything. When I woke up I thought, why didn't we just go somewhere else? I was going to comment and tell her this but I felt a bit lame. But I've told everyone now in a mad act of rebellion.

#TWO

People expect me to be really confident and outgoing because of my appearance, when in fact I have terrible social anxiety and am incredibly shy

#THREE

I fell in love with the band I went to see last night. My mum's friend is the keyboardist and the friend's husband is the singer. They're called The Cesarians and you should seriously myspace that shiz up.

#FOUR

My hair has been almost every conceivable colour, but it's never been brown or black.

#FIVE

My biggest fears are maggots, the dark and various apocalyptic disasters, mostly the huge volcano that is Yellowstone Park erupting.

I am also terrified of broken glass because I fell on a broken bottle when I was really really high when I was 14 and although I actually hardly hurt myself I was so afraid there were tiny bits of glass all over me and all over everything until I came down.

#SIX

When I was at school my friends and I found a disused cupboard in the music area that seated 2 people just about comfortably and we spent most of year 11 in there missing lessons and making up ridiculous 'what would you do if...' scenarios. Once we squished 3 of us in there, which wasn't very comfortable. Another time I came into school high and, realising I was too fucked to go to Maths I headed for the cupboard alone, where I hallucinated that I could see swirling black patterns on the back of the doors.

#SEVEN

I have self harmed since I was 12 and I'm not at all ashamed of it. People think this sounds awful but I have never understood why on earth I shouldn't. I don't hide it from anyone except my mother, although in all honesty I think she knows and has decided that if I can deal with it so can she. That said, I don't ever purposely show it off either. It is mostly on my thigh and I will never mention it unless questioned.

#EIGHT

I have smoked since I was 13, and I had my first cigarette in a bush at a Krayfish Party.

#NINE

I drink far too much.

The record amount that I ever drunk, or can remember drinking at least, was at a family friend's party in Somerset when I was 13.

I had a big bottle of red square (an alcopop), half a pint of vodka, 2 beers, a whole bottle of red wine and a whole bottle of white wine.

Eventually I passed out under a tree, came round, vomited on my shoe and then proceeded to sing Oasis songs on Karaoke sitting on a hay bail, crying for no conceivable reason.

#TEN

I have just made myself sound like the biggest delinquent in the universe ever.

As I am such a delinquent, I am only going to pass on the award to 3 people because I am scared to give it to anyone else.

My first choice actually I think would be Harley, but as I can't give it back...

First of all I would like to give it to Sofia because I think she is sweet and lovely.

Secondly I want to give it to BindyBones becuase basically, I think she's cool and I want to be her friend. (That sounds really lame and like I am five but IT'S FACT)

and Number 3 is for Kels AKA Lilah Lee for being gorgeous in general.

Sorry I'm too rubbish to give it to five people, and I'm sorry if you didn't get it, it's not because I don't like you, it's just because I'm a nervous wreck.

I love you allllll xxxx