I love her and I've been watching skins series 1 all day.
I bought a copy of Look magazine, mostly for more wall attacking materials, and I was just admiring some twiggy model sprawled across a sofa when I noticed the book lying next to her was titled, 'Mister God this is Anna'.
Also yesterday, I was just admiring some skinny girl opposite me's collarbones yesterday in Japanese when the teacher asked her a question and I realised her name was Anna.
Am I mad if I think this is a sign of some kind?
In any case I have never claimed to be anorexic, because I'm not.
I'm not thin enough at all to use her name for a start, and I've just got strong enough will power to restrict myself in order to be who I want to be, which is what I want to prove, and have done before.
That's not to say I have a necessarily healthy attitude to food either.
ANYWAY,
got no work done last night, stayed up until 1am watching Come Dine With Me online.
It's a strange addiction.
Had a glass of wine.
Didn't go to my lectures AGAIN this morning.
weighed 50.2kg after breakfast.
Which is OK.
food for today:
2 Rice cakes with low fat cream cheese 124cals
Salt and Vingar french fries 84cals
mini chocolate cupcake 87cals
Tomato soup 171cals
466cals
I'm worried my intake is too samey each day atm,
might do 2,4,6,8 for a while?
At least until I go home where I might have to eat a bit more regularly, altho I doubt I'll even be in much and now I'm 18 my mum can't be bothered to be concerned about me anymore.
This is a good thing by the way, didn't mean that to sound bitter.
My Boyfriend is trying to get here atm, but there's a tube strike so he's not having much luck, and my friend is trying to hassle me to go to Oceana again. I JUST WANT TO GO TO THE PUB.
And maybe get some work done.
Lol as if that's going to happen.
Melons.
A few of Cassie:
2 comments:
Definitely a sign, a sign to stay strong, a reminder :) And I love Cassie too! "Oh... wow." :) stay strong hun and you're intake's brilliant, and maybe do try the 246 diet, I've never tried it but it's meant to be really good xx
oh wow just saw you read my post yesterday as well which was stupid long.
That's dedication.
Thanks for all the comments btw it makes me feel better (:
oh I said oh wow, ha that wasn't even on purpose!
Thanks for the encouragement.
And I want to be Cassie SO MUCH (: xx
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