I'm burning and I'm black in my lungs.

I seem to be smoking heaps more at the moment.

A bit like, 'oh I'm hungry I'll have a cigarette.'

I've also stopped finding hunger unbearable and am starting to appreciate it's true beauty.

Despite this, I weighed 50.4kg this morning.

SO FRUSTRATING.

I've put it down to the fact that I came on period today but is that plausible?

Either way I'm very cross with myself, I didn't even drink last night!

Today I have eaten:

yoghurt 52cals

Mini babybel 61cals

I am in the middle of trying to eat some god awful broccoli soup that looks like vomit.

It's 266cals if I finish it which I doubt as it's absolutely revolting and I'm not even hungry, I just thought I ought to eat before going out tonight.

I'm not exceeding 4 single vodkas once I'm out either.

Oh and I finished my essay and handed it in very very late!

Wish me luck with this god awful soup.

I think it's going down the toilet tbh.

Probs won't post tomorrow as I'm going to visit my friend in High Wycombe and going to a party there, not sure what I'll do about eating but I daresay I'll let you all know.

byebyebye xx