Garlic dough balls, a huge margherita pizza and then tiramisu, plus two glasses of wine.
What is wrong with me?
Damn pizza express.
I threw it up when I got in, well most of it anyway, as my flatmate interrupted by knocking on my door to check if I was OK after everything with my mum.
My flatmate asked me about my eating too and wanted to check I'd never get anorexic or bulimic.
As if I'd have the will power to.
Also, she brought up cutting, it's obvious I have scars on my arms and I know some of the huge ones on my leg have made a guest appearance when I've sat down in a short dress but I didn't really realise anyone had noticed. Anyway it turns out she used to cut too for like 4 years and ended up in some institute because she tried to kill herself. That is the last thing I expected to hear from her! But anyway she said I can talk to her about stuff if I need to, which is really sweet of her. It was also good because it meant I could ask for help on how the fuck I'm going to wash my bloodstained white skirt.
Anyway, today is a fast day for me, so I'm sat in my room with 4 litres of coke zero for company, good times...
Happy Thanksgiving to all you american types, whatever that means.
Lots of food I gather,
good luck with that.
xoxo
5 comments:
I'm so happy you and your mum seem to be getting closer :) must be so nice. I have scars all over my wrists arm and legs, but it's gotten to the point where they're just part of me I don't mind if people see. Anyway hope you're ok despite the purge, be ok :) <3 xx
oh I meant that my flatmate said that!
Not my mum! My mum does casually ignoring it all.
Which I prefer.
But yeah I don't care if people see really either, I'm not ashamed of it. xxx
Thanksgiving sucks >.< yeah, lots and lots of food.. We're supposed to be giving thanks for things, the feast symbolizes something with native Americans that probably didn't really happen anyways before our ancestors killed most of them.. meh
You're a cutter? Me too. If you find out how to get blood stains off colored things I'd like to hear, white just use bleach. Lots and lots of bleach..
aha well I can tell you're enthusiastic about Thanksgiving then...
and I will do although I'm probably the least domesticated person ever. x
Ah pizza. Damn you.
At least you have someone there that can understand you, and you're not alone.
Take care of yourself lovely
xo
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