The champagne makes it taste so much better

Sorry I've not posted in a little while, only like a day actually, but that seems a long time for me.

OK so on Tuesday night I went for pizza with my mum as it has become our sort of tradition for when she gives me lifts to and from uni.

Both of us have lost lots of weight recently and as a result have smaller appetites so we didn't get a starter and as we couldn't decide what pizza to have we shared 2 which made it much easier for me to make it look like I had eaten more than I had, I probably had about 4 slices total.

Aside from that I only had 3 rice cakes that day, and that morning I weighed 47kg.

After pizza we picked up my boyfriend who stayed over at my house.

Yesterday I had 2 rice cakes which have higher calories at home as my family buy different brands to me, so 124cals and then me and my boyfriend went up to Winter Wonderland in Hyde Park, I came on my period that morning and I get dreadful period pains so despite my skinny as anything boyfriend offering to buy me belgian waffles and donuts and all sorts I declined with the excuse my period pains were making me feel sick, which was partly true, while he happily munched away, we had a baileys each though and then we spent an hour ice-skating, which I imagine burnt some calories somewhere, went on a few rides and then went on the huge observation wheel where we had booked a private capsule with champagne. It was so beautiful and romantic and we got quite drunk as well (:

I talked to him about some difficult stuff from my past that I don't really talk about as well and I'm glad I did, when we got back to mine he was hungry so I cooked him egg and beans on toast but I said I still felt sick and didn't have anything and went to bed.

So far this morning I have had 2 rice cakes (I just live on them really) and I am planning on having a packet of french fries and a cup-a-soup for the rest of the day which will equate to around 350cals before going out to my friend's gig in Soho where I will stick to a few vodka and diet cokes.

Fat Bastard's accusations of me being a 'fat girl' at heart have rather motivated me to prove otherwise. I really rather resent that. And it's also a pretty ignorant statement to make that 'real' anorexics are effortlessly thin. If it was effortless it wouldn't be anorexia.

But I'm done with him now because he just makes me cross and acknowledging him is only going to encourage him further.

OK, ramble over.

Love to everyone who is still here and to everyone who isn't.

xoxo