yesterday at my friend's house was really fun, I know all her family quite well and they're all really sweet and I drank lots and lots of wine and smoked lots and lots of ciggies and ended up playing poker until about 1am. Oh, and comments were made about my thin-ness. A family friend of theirs described me as a 'slip of a girl' and my friend's mum said, 'ooh I can tell you've lost weight at uni'. Happy days.
I ate a shitload tho, actually just the huge dinner and a few cheesey nibbles but I still feel gross.
I am so so so glad to be fasting today.
And actually eating so much over the past few days has made me want to eat even less, it's reminded me how disgusting it feels to eat.
Horrible.
So today I am going to see my second cousins with my mum. They are all around my age, give or take a few years, and they are all straight A students at Cambridge and Oxford and they are all going to have brought their boyfriends and girlfriends, and obviously my boyfriend won't be there because he's still up north with his family and it's just going to make me miss him and feel stupid and like the single failure I always used to be. At least there's no sit down meal. Just 'nibbles' which are easily avoided.
Last Christmassy thinspo before normality returns...
3 comments:
christmas is good for that at lest, reminding you how disgusting you feel after you've eaten >.< my christams party tomorrow is going to make me miss the boy too
Love it when the comments start coming! And good luck on the fasting, I love that feeling of it after nibbles :) sounds like you had a good night <3 and sorry I haven't commented in ages! I'm back though, and missed your blog :) hope you're well xxx
i love comments. they make me remember that im actually doing something. congrats.
lovely thinspo.
<3
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