Wednesday, 29 December 2010

A melancholy town where we never smile

Had a mini binge yesterday when I was supposed to be fasting. I walked to and from town to buy some contact solution and when I got back I had 3 crackers with cheese on, a chocolate and a biscuit, which I promptly threw up. What was even the point? Stupid.

Walked to and from the pub as well, so I suppose yesterday wasn't too much of a failure. I went with one of my best friends, E, but none of our lot were there really so we ended up hanging out with some of my friends who were in the year above us at High School. E doesn't really know them though and I think she felt a bit left out cos she buggered off to another pub down the road with her cousin after a while.

It wasn't a very interesting night, I was invited to go back to some girl's house afterwards but I felt a bit weird about it cos I don't really know her so I didn't. Highlight of the night was my friend saying to me, 'I don't know how this is possible as it's Christmas, but I think you've lost even more weight.' Happy days. Another funny moment was some random guy who was completely plastered trying to chat me up at the bar, he kept touching my arse and said his name was something that sounded like, 'Anthony HerbertSherbet'. Anyway, one of my friends came over and it turned out he sort of knew her so he offered to buy us drinks but he couldn't remember his pin code, or my name for that matter, he asked me it like 3 times.

Today I've literally done like fuck all, I went for a random walk around town for like an hour tho to stop me feeling too much like a lard arse. I'm liquid fasting today, although I had a 62cal chocolate when I got in from my walk. I've also had 2 different diet cup-a-soups, one was 60cals and one was 55cals, and a bit later on I'm gonna have a tin of tomato soup at 171cals, so that makes 348cals for today, which isn't too bad. Tomorrow is my first post Christmas weigh day, I'm hoping to have stayed the same but I think that might be a bit optimistic after everything I ate over Christmas and my stupid binge yesterday, even though I purged that straight away I'm sure some of those evil calories found their way into my body somehow.

lots of lurve xxxx
PS. my boyfriend is back tomorrow (:



1 comment:

Starving Artist said...

good luck on not gaining