went to the pub with my skinny mini friend who I weighed less than a few days ago...
yeah she's dropped to 45.8kg
I hate her.
I couldn't go for a walk because the pavements here have literally turned to ice, it took me half an hour to get to her house when it normally takes 10mins just because it was a nightmare trying not to fall over, and then we went to the bizarre old man's pub over the road from hers just because trekking to the pub we wanted to go to seemed impossible, spesh as she was in heels. I had 2 double vodka and diet cokes which I am quite tipsy off as I've been fasting today.
I've also ordered a new dance mat game as it has transpired that my mum 'accidentally' threw the old disc away, so calorie counted work outs shall hopefully resume before I go back to uni, by Jan amazon predicts, but the weather in the UK atm means the post is absolutely buggered so who knows, I'm might just be destined to be a lump forever?
I can feel my arms being enormous pretty much 24/7. I seriously need to tone them up, I'm going to do 200 crunches and 5 minutes of stupid hula things and then go to bed I think. I won't be 46kg tomorrow. I will be 46.4 just because my entire life is against me. WHY CAN'T I JUST LOSE WEIGHT BY ACCIDENT LIKE MY FRIEND?!!!?!?! She can just eat Christmas dinner all carefree like that's OK. It makes me feel aggressive.
I wish I wasn't such a useless wannarexic and that I could lose weight properly.
I wish I didn't weigh a million stone.
I wish a random old guy in the pub tonight hadn't looked up my skirt and said 'woof'.
bloody stupid bloody christmas.
What the fuck is the point?
Except food.
Obviously.
xxx
5 comments:
You will lose the rest of the weight. I know you will. I have faith in you, and you should have faith and you, too. stay consistent, and you will drop the weight. Christmas is such a hard time to keep up the good work, but you will.
stay superstrong. i know you can do it..
-Molly <3
hey! i care that you post twice in one day! i like it. (:
christmas is fucking annoying me right now, but i know its not christmas's fault for my failure.
losing weight "by accident" would be a godsend. but you will be 46kg. i just know it.
stay lovely. <3
lmao did he actually say 'woof' ? XD
hate those old guys even when they're silent. cause their look says it all
and stay optimistic, maybe it will help~ (?) dunno...
maybe some more working out will do the job, it's so little left for 46
good luck!
On the bright side: Walking on all that ice probably required more muscles than usual, so you probably burned twice as much!
You should measure your arms. You will feel better when you see the circumference going down from exercise. It can actually happen quite quickly, and sometimes you wouldn't even notice because you hate on yourself so much and your weight might not change. Measuring has really helped me realize that all of my work has not been in vain along the way; when the numbers on the scale won't budge, the inches on my waist, etc. often do.
also, thank you for commenting on my blog and looking at mine even though its being a bitch right now. (:
<3
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