Yesterday my fast went quite well. I ended up getting on OK with my family and we all played stupid games all day and had quite a lot to drink. My idea of fasting is usually not eating anything but drinking lots to try and distract myself from the lack of food so that was pretty standard anyway, I was drinking amaretto and diet cokes. I also ate one single hula hoop, one peanut and one slightly stale cheesey wotsit (that's a cheeto to all you American types) but I do mean one and not packets of so that's what, 75cals max? My great aunt and my mum made a vague effort to make me eat but just before we left my mum said to me, 'did you eat anything in the end?' and I said, 'I might have done' which she inexplicably interpreted as 'yes I have eaten in secret'. If you like.
Actually I think that my mother is competing with me. She is forever telling me how little she's eaten and how much weight she's lost, and justifying whatever she does eat. My life is bizarre. Fasting again today, not eating makes me even more intolerant and irritable than usual I think but never mind. Supposedly going to the pub later, if I don't pass out on the way. I think I'm going to eat nothing at all today and then switch up to only liquids tomorrow, and then go back to 500ish calories a day until I go back to uni after that.
Well that was boring wasn't it. I was going to post some pictures of myself but I decided I looked fat in all of them. Just a note tho, the pics at the end of my posts are never of me, just random thinspos, but my profile pic is of me. I might post some pics of me at the pub tomorrow if there are any decent ones but don't hold your breath.
love you all xxx
4 comments:
Great job on your fasting!
That sucks about Nikki Grahame. I had never even heard of her until I started reading the book. She certainly isn't a celebrity in the United States. THe book mainly focuses on her life as a child, when her weight was insanely low, etc.
But I can CERTAINLY see how she is a brat. Just reading between the lines in the book shows that she is full of herself and perhaps isn't quite over all of the problems that led to her eating disorder in the first place. I'm glad I never watched her show or met her in real life, because the book is super interesting.
Well done on the fasting hun :) you're staying strong. It must spur you on with your mother doing that... I guess that's a good thing?? I don't know. I know about the rain (as you know I'm a brit too :P) and it's all just frozen here haha :) hope you're well, stay strong
good job fasting! and i think my mom is liek that too, like she eats lless than me... then tells me to eat. silly woman.
good luck today!
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thank you for the comment: im alright, and happy is a relative term. i havent been happy for a while, but i think im trying... haha.
thanks for caring. <3
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